The downfall of my own positivity

I have not admitted defeat left. I do have 4 days and could easily still beat NaNoWriMo, but I have accepted the reality of it. Over the Thanksgiving break I returned home only to realize that my partner who is in the hospital, took all the laptop chargers.... and mine died on day one. So in short my entire break was pretty much a waste for writing. I am heartbroken over it because now I need over 4,000 words a day to even make my goal. One top of pulling a double today, it's going to be hard that's for sure. I'm not giving up, far from, but I can see the end, and right now, it's not very pretty.